New Interview

Excellent author Jay Wilburn interviewed me for his Matters of Faith podcast where I discuss my upcoming book Extinction Peak, collaborating with some of the genre’s heavy hitters, and Stephen King’s funniest quirks.

Tarot 8/31/20

What are you telling me?

I think about and struggle a lot with balance.

The High Priestess is the bridge between two seemingly opposing forces. We need her.

She represents intuition and our inner voice. This is who we hear when we tune out the partisan noise.

To follow her middle path is harder than any other potential path. You crawl out of primordial muck and walk, but the tame and the feral each call to you. Each voice is of equal volume and resonance. The same is said for good and evil. The Moon is a guiding light, but there is darkness all around.

The Two of Pentacles is the infinite inevitability of straying from the middle path, but also the inevitability of your return to it.

Neither devil nor god has your best interests at heart. They want pawns. Transcendence is possible, but only through the center path.

Howl at the moon, my monsters.

A Note on My Friend

I have lots of thoughts on what went down w/ my friend Autumn, but I’ll keep this brief.

She is still one of my closest friends, and I’ll still buy anything she writes.

Because I know her, I know the things she said were said out of love. This doesn’t mean I agree with everything she said, nor does it mean I don’t have sympathy for people hurt by what she said. I recognize her tone can seem harsh to some. A post from her a couple years back once got me to shut down my social media for months afterwards. It also led to a period of self-reflection which helped pull me out of a darkness to which I hope to never return.

I believe intent matters. I believe it is important to reflect before you react. Your mileage may vary.

I won’t condemn people for choosing to unfollow her or opting to not buy anymore of her books. I will however condemn any outright lies spread about her and any harassment or threats directed her way.

I love you all, genuinely.

Bright Spots

Today, we’re going to talk about the positives.

Yeah, I know. What? How can the guy who wrote Saint Sadist write about positivity?

The answer’s obvious, of course. To paraphrase Walt Whitman, we contain multitudes.

But onto the meat of this thing. 2020 has been a terrible year, probably the first year I wouldn’t tell a doomsday-preaching evangelical they were crazy if they said we were living in the End Times. While I don’t think the apocalypse will play out quite the way they suspect, I’d say for all their years of playing this fear-mongering guessing game, they may have at least landed somewhere in the ballpark of reality.

I recently changed the name of this blog to Coping Mechanisms for the Apocalypse. Those five particular words have been in my head a lot over the last two years or so. It’s likely no accident they rose from the swamps of my subconscious around the same time I spent a long weekend in a psych ward.

There are two apocalypses. One is global and the other (and perhaps more important one) takes place inside of you. Why do most of my seemingly real-world horror stories often devolve into psychodrama and symbolism? I believe real world problems aren’t actually solved in the real world. They’re solved in our dreams, our subconscious–collective and otherwise.

The world’s on fire and everything hurts, so let’s cope together.

In the world of dark fiction, we’ve so far seen stunning debuts from Samantha Kolesnik and Jo Quenell. We got not one but TWO new releases from Chandler Morrison. We got Murder House by C.V. Hunt, a book I think will go down as one of her best. We also got another winning collection by Charles Austin Muir and new nonfiction by Brian Keene. Not bad at all, eh?

We can still stream movies and shows. Speaking of which, I recently saw a Thai film called The Pool. It’s GRUELING in the best way possible and cinematic storytelling at its best.

Lockdown sucks, but I’ve been cooped up with people I love more than anything. My kid’s at an age where he’s infinitely curious and can still hold down a conversation. My wife is the hardest working person I know and remains a beacon of light despite having her own struggles. Today is our son’s birthday and though I’m working the day job, I’m bound to get some quality time in during the evening.

I bring up The Pool because it’s probably the most apt metaphor for life in 2020 I’ve seen so far. It has lots of out-of-the-frying-pan-into-the-fire-moments, heart-wrenching deaths, impossible odds, and luck both good and bad. Basically, the main character is trapped in a deep, empty pool with a hungry, pregnant crocodile. Anything else I say will spoil it.

I feel like we’re the film’s protagonist, Day. His circumstances constantly go from bad to worse. The exhaustion and pain on his face is our exhaustion and pain.

At least we’ve got some good reading material though, huh?


Signed copies of MANIA are still available here.

My Patreon now features weekly short fiction every Thursday. Posts are open to the public. Pledging is optional. Right now, all stories take place in the Gods of the Dark Web universe, but that may change.

The first episode of the Dark Corners Podcast, co-hosted by me, is now up. Check it out wherever you get your podcasts, or you can watch the video versions on YouTube or IGTV.

Born Fighting

By now, I’m sure all of you have read my most recent blog post. Some of you have seen fit to cut me out of your life as a result, which is sad, but also hardly surprising. Authenticity is rarely celebrated or even tolerated by those who wish to preserve their own brand.

And that’s fine.

I was born fighting. At six weeks overdue, I gave my mother a less than pleasant labor experience, even by labor experience standards. Multiple times throughout that long night we both almost died. The first things I felt in this life were pain and terror.

But I also learned how to fight for my life. I learned that I could.

In the wake of that blog post, I had good people come out of the woodwork to show their support. People like that can make the apocalypse a little more bearable.

In the heat of battle, you lose friends, but you also find out who your true friends are, who has your back and who will fight alongside you.

To those who have stood by me: you are seen, you are heard, and you are loved.

Because of you, I am okay.


Signed copies of MANIA are still available here.

My Patreon now features weekly short fiction every Thursday. Posts are open to the public. Pledging is optional. Right now, all stories take place in the Gods of the Dark Web universe, but that may change.

The first episode of the Dark Corners Podcast, co-hosted by me, is now up. Check it out wherever you get your podcasts, or you can watch the video versions on YouTube or IGTV.