When she finished sessions for the day, she gathered all her notes and her laptop. She flipped to the first page of her legal pad so it would sit more comfortably in her bag. The symbol Katie sketched that morning caught her eye and made her pause. She studied the image, its curves and angles, the herd of animal impressions spiraling toward its center. There was something undeniably captivating about it, though she was sure she had never seen it before. She traced the angles with her index and middle fingers. The paper hissed at her touch.
Having studied the occult
during college, she had a hard time believing she didn’t recognize the symbol.
She thought of Dr. Carlyle, the professor who she interviewed for her thesis,
and wondered if he would know something about the symbol. A part of her wanted
to let it go, but she was worried about Katie.
Every once in a while, in her profession, a client came around who she felt connected to. Something deeper than a patient-therapist relationship existed between them. The first time it happened, she fell in love with a patient named Arthur. She had just graduated and Arthur was close to her age. When they spoke, it reminded her of good music, each instrument a complement to the other, shifting between each voice in perfect time. After one particularly passionate session, he kissed her, and she let him. She even returned his affections. Realizing her error, she recommended him to a colleague and told him they couldn’t see each other personally, or professionally, because it just wasn’t right. Six months later, he committed suicide. Hanged himself in the foyer of his parents’s house.
While Ruthanne had no romantic feelings for Katie, she did think of the young woman as a friend. She had a personal investment in Katie’s recovery. Because of this, she had no qualms going above and beyond to figure out ways to help. She would never let Katie go, not like she let Arthur go. Sometimes a therapist lost a patient, but she refused to lose another she cared for this deeply, especially not when a possible answer lay before her. If she could find out more about the symbol, she might better understand what Katie was going through.
Ruthanne reopened her laptop and looked up Dr. Carlyle’s phone number. She dialed, not expecting him to answer. On the third ring, he picked up.
“Dr. Carlyle? It’s
Ruthanne. Ruthanne Weiss.”
“Ruthanne, well, hello.
How are you this evening?”
“I’m okay. I’m sorry to
bother you, but I was wondering if you could look at something for me. Can I
scan it to you?”
“Sure, you still have my
She read it back to him.
“That’s the one.”
“Great, I’ll send it right over.”
“What are you sending me?”
“It’s a symbol one of my patients drew. I… don’t recognize it, but I thought you might.”
“Still chasing spirits, I see.”
“Did you ever stop?”
“No, I don’t suppose I have. Go ahead and send me the image.”
“Will do. Thanks.”
“So long, old friend.”
They hung up and she went
to the office scanner, typed in his email, and sent the sketch of the symbol.
She waited, sitting still for the first fifteen minutes, and then she started
pacing. When he didn’t call back a half hour later, she tried calling him. No
okay. Just give him time. Maybe he’ll call tomorrow.
She took the sheet from the scanner and stared again at the symbol. It hypnotized her, until she made herself stuff the paper into her bag, and finally left the office.